Caulfield Throughout the book, “Catcher in the Rye,” the main Character Holden Caulfield, was portrayed with many characteristics like experience with depression, immaturity, loneliness, phoniness, and many others. These affected Holden Caulfield in a very bad way. It made Holden become trap in a world full of pain and sorrow and he goes through his life with many conflict in his way. In Holden’s view point of himself, he is looked as a failure. Holden has a very complex characteristics, which can lead him to make the wrong decisions. As Holden was growing up, he had been alone his entire life. Even his parents didn’t care for him. The only person that Holden truly loved was his brother Allie. When Allie passed away from leukemia, a big piece of Holden also went away. “I was only thirteen, and they were going to have me psychoanalyzed and all, because I broke all the windows in the garage. I don’t blame them. I really don’t. I slept in the garage the night he died, and I broke all the goddam windows with my fist, just for the hell of it” (Salinger 44). Holden expresses his feeling through his anger of his brothers death. He could not take the fact that his brother died so he caused physical harm to himself. “My hand still hurts me once in a while when it rains and all, and I can’t make a real fist any more – not a tight one, I mean – but outside of that I don’t care much. I mean I’m not going to be a goddam surgeon or a violinist or anything anyway” (Salinger 44). Holden physically harmed himself and made more problems in the future because Allie’s death cause a hole in his heart. This brought Holden’s mood down and made him inactive. Holden did not want to make any connections with anyone or he would be judgemental to them. Holden’s characteristics would be different if Allie did not die because it was the main reason way Holden fell apart. He would be more active and friendly to everyone. Holden characterizes himself as a liar. In chapter three, he states that, “I’m the most terrific liar…” (Salinger 19). He describes his lying issues as “terrible”. This made Holden’s reputation look bad, but lying can also be used in a good way. On the train, Holden sat next to Ernest Morrow’s mother. Holden knew it would be rude to tell what kind of student Ernest was. “Her son was doubtless the biggest bastard that ever went to Pencey, in the whole crumby history of the school. He was always going down the corridor, after he’d had a shower, snapping his soggy old wet towel at people’s asses. That’s exactly the kind of a guy he was.” (Salinger 61). This was what holden truly felt about him. Holden then lies through his conversation with her and tells Ernest’s mother that Ernest is a great student and a nice guy. This prevents Holden to be himself while interacting with other people. He isolates himself with others making himself the wrong person. At the end of the book, Holden wanted to be a changed man. He wants to value the people that made a change in his life rather than to forget or think about it every time. Holden’s final statement that he said was, “Don’t tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.” ( Salinger 234). Holden wants to keep his friends in his memory and not be reminded of them or else he would feel bad and his mood would change. He understands what being happy is and to appreciate the little things in life. Holden wants to undergo a change in his life to become more happy and love what truly matters in his life.